I’m basically just the same as everyone else, it’s all in the eyes of the beholder. Here I am, and there you are. I became a member of the Song Writers Guild in 1999 as a lyricist, and composer. I have a very large family, and a wide base of friends. I’ve traveled all over the USA except for Hawaii, and Alaska. Now as far as the “Inner Wars”, stuff it really is all about the inward struggle of one’s own observed life. If you look up in the dictionary number I. Arcane through number VII. The Acuity’s you’ll see that I’m talking about coming of a beginning of nothing and going through changes to be that special someone. So check out everything, as well as the Blog’s and leave a comment or become a friend so that we can get to know each other’s self. And when I can think of more things to put down here on this web site I will.

OK. Now Ive found out what to put down here, I have a friend that just came out with everything and it was nice to read. I am what you have already read but there is more to me than just that. Most of the time you could say I’m one lazy person, but It’s the medication that I take that makes me lazy, and no I do not like it but as well I don’t like the alternative. I take six different medications for being bipolar, having seizures, and being schizophrenic. They are: Tegretol, seroquel, risperdal, clonazepam, clomipramine, and temazepam. I don’t like to take them but like I said I don’t like the alternative of not taking them. I as well about ten years ago was in a big wreck were I lost a little over half my left leg. I bought myself a brand new motorcycle and two and half hours later got hit by a truck. Which believe me doesn’t bother me. It’s the other stuff that gets in my way. So needless to say I’m pretty much of a recluse and very rarely go out with friends to socialize. Lets see, I believe in God tremendously some say I can be scary about it, even priest but I’m only trying to get to the root truth of the whole thing and yes that can be scary at times. I can sometimes get to deep on things and a little lost. As I’m writing this I’m thinking of other things and another thing is that I don’t eat all that well, not because of anything about eating I just dont get hungry like I’m suppose to. I’m not dirty thank goodness but I know I don’t take care of myself as best that I could. Like I’ve already said I Liked to travel, yet don’t really like to anymore. I’ve done so much of that I’ve worn myself out on it. Lets see if I have any good stuff here, I absolutely love my family. My dad Kyle, has been married three times and is still with his third wife, and I think he is finally satisfied with someone. I was raised by him and his second wife Greta who is as much as my mother as the mother that birthed me who is Terry. Now my real mother and I are getting along fantastically. I have three brothers and three sisters that I’m really close to but as well I have other brothers and sisters because my mother Greta who raised me has been remarried to Tom who has children but I don’t really know them. I as well have other sisters that I dont know that much from my dads third wife. I have finally taken on having my own pet which is a cat that I named Tbo, pronounced T-bo. And I’ve had her for about five years now and she is great. I have found that if I start liking someone I actually really like them and start caring and a lot of people don’t want to actually have someone that really cares for them. I find that a really odd thing, for I enjoy it when someone opens themselves up and becomes vulnerable and starts caring. So if you don’t want me to care for you don’t be my friend, I’m in no popularity contest here. I do want to share my music with everyone, yet I’ve already been popular growing up and it’s not at all what its cracked up to be. On that I didn’t finish High School, not because of anything to do with school mind you it had to do with me and who I was and I just left home for I was of the age to do so and I just did. I couldn’t wait for it. I have really only had a few girlfriends that I have really loved yet they didn’t really love me it turns out or lets say they cheated on me. I’m still in contact with all of them but I’ve learned my lesson on getting any closer to them by their actions of the past. Which by the way has maid me somewhat not able to trust a girl in a so-called girlfriend type of way. Plus I’m called to nice, and I say, What? I don’t get what that means. But from what I get Im a person that the ladys dont need to change and the lady’s if you ladys dont mind me saying need a little challenge in their relationships. They want the bad boy that they can change into their own liking, and I’m already a good guy so I hold no challenge to them. I know not all ladys are like this but I have yet to meet one. Plus for some reason there is a competition in the relationship and I’m in no competition with the one I love, and they in my experience dislike that I don’t argue or compete with them when they’re in the mood. So over time I’ve become some what blaaa on having a close relationship because I keep running into lady’s that are like this and just don’t want to get involved. And I’m not going to be a bad guy just so I can have a girlfriend or get laid. I’ve been told play the game, play the game, and for me life is no game, plus I have enough to deal with already and would think that everybody else has enough to deal with without playing the game but I still see the majority of people playing the game. I don’t mind really it’s their life, but it’s not mine. Now my friends that I do have, I’ve known them ever since I was little. My dad, and my mother think I’m lucky on that because I have so many real friends that will be life long friends. The only reason that is, is because like I said I don’t play games and when I care, I care, maybe to a fault sometimes but people know that I actually care about them. I as well know that my real friends actually care about me too. But all in all about all this stuff is the biggest thing about being a friend is being able to be venerable and putting yourself out on the line with that person and knowing that your friend you’re putting yourself out on the line with will not take advantage of that and will hold you gently, as they too are just as venerable as you are.

Enough of all that. I hope that you enjoy the music, pictures and writings. And please leave a comment or two.

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Thank you,
Ryan B. O’Reilly